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I thought I would catch up on the blog. I haven't much going on so I haven't written lately.
I enjoyed watching General Conference on Sunday April 5Th my favorite talk was given by Elder Gary E. Stevenson of the seventy. He spoke about Sacred Homes, Sacred Temples. My favorite quote in the talk was when he told the story of his father with the grandsons while they were driving he went to area where the grandsons had never been. When grandpa asked "Do you think we are lost?" one young grandson answered "Look.Grandpa you are never lost when you can see the temple." I thought about this statement and realized that I never felt lost or confused when I visited the temples. When I lived in SLC I remembered that no matter what was going on around me I was not alone because I could see the temple and it was the house of the Lord. It is a place where conventnants are made and eternal ordinances are performed. When I finally became endowed it was a place I could go and be with my Father in Heaven. He also talked about our homes are they a place of refuge is there love in the home. Are you happy there. Do you have uplifting pictures on the walls. Is your bedroom a sleeping place or a place to go to for personal prayers to you Heavenly Father.
For some reason this conference I was determined to watch and listen to all of the Sunday sessions. Some of you know of my struggles with church after listening to conference this past week I came to the conclusion that I haven't been really listening to what was being said Yes the bible scriptures are used in talks. I realize now that I need to return to church and go to the temple again. This week has been a frustrating one for me. Because as a mother you always want to protect your child no matter how old they are. Melissa's father is being cruel to me and he does it because he knows of the love I have for Melissa. I am scared that he will start being cruel to her to get at me. I guess I will have to trust my Father in Heaven to help me deal with this stuff.