Change is a challenge

On Thursday May 21st we were told by the VP of the hospital that Mercy Child Development Center where I work would no longer be managed by Mercy Medical Center because they were not in the child care business. We will still provide care for the hospital staff and doctors but Bright Horizons will now be in charge. This was presented to us after they fed us a nice dinner. The first thing that was told to us was that " We are a asset and a benefit to the nurses and doctors and medical staff.It is not about the money. It is about the fact they are not in child care business" If it isn't about the money then why did she spout off all the statistics about the cost of childcare and how they couldn't justify it anymore. They threw us out with the dirty water.
Bright Horizons will take over on June 21st. The pros to this change is that yes Bright Horizons is in the childcare field and they will have the means to help provide the basic items you need in childcare such as crayons, construction paper, I will no longer have to take from my home and income to provide for my classroom. Which I did willingly because I wanted the children to experience the excitement of learning. Bright Horizons will provide the opportunity for those that want it to get there CDA (Child Development Associate)credential for a very low cost. I have my AS in Early Childhood Development so that will not benefit me.
There will be opportunities for advancements in the Bright Horizons orginazation. My pay will stay the same with a 2% raise that was already budgeted by Mercy. The downfalls I can see is that my benefits will go up. I am lucky mine will not go up very much. I will worry about all the new policies and how I will fit in with the new people being around. They will not have floor supervisors but an Assistant Director and lead teachers. Which I could qualify for but at this time I choose not to think about.If I leave I will have to take a pay cut because there are not very many daycares that pay as well. Even though I have my degree I will still not be offered what I am making now with benefits.
With all this going on we had to fill out new paperwork. I felt good about my decesion to stay with Bright Horizons but as I was filling out the paper work I felt a real dread. I had prayed and even fasted about my decesion to stay and I felt it was right. So why the dreadful feeling??? I had become so stressed over it that I was sick. I had some other thoughts but they were a spiritual experience and I want to keep them to myself at this time. I finally had a priesthood blessing given to me by my home teachers. As I told them my dilema I began to see that the goals I had deceided on were good and the best for now. I will give Bright Horizons six months to prove that we both can work together. In six months I will re-evalute how I feel about the situtation. Then I will save have a months income in a savings account that way if I am not happy I can either deceide to work for another place or maybe even do home childcare again. Through all of this time I have realized that I didn't have anyone to talk this through with. And that made me very sad. This does not mean I want a husband it would just would have been nice to have someone I could have come home to that night to discuss the situtation with. Here are a few of the reasons I chose this career.

Tribute to Mother's Day

As I thought about writing on my blog............ I thought well I could tell you all about my recent trip to Pella Tulip Time which was very nice. But then I started thinking about my mother. As this is Mother's Day I thought I go ahead with my thoughts of my mother. She passed away May 4th 2002. I have missed her many times since then.
Even though my mother and I were the typical Daughter and Mother we had our differences I grew up not really knowing she loved me and my 2 brothers because she didn't say it often to us. Her life as a youth was not a real happy one and she didn't hear many good words from her parents. So as I have matured through the years I realize that she only did what she knew. As I grew up and got married, divorced, and became a mother myself I realized that even though I didn't hear the words I Love YOU alot she did love us. Her actions spoke louder for me. She worked 3 jobs at times to keep a decent roof over our heads and even though we didnt wear many name brands we had clean clothes and shoes for our feet. We had food in the house. She paid for babysitters to come to our house so we didn't spend too much time away from home. She would make sure our needs were met before her own. I remember she did whatever she could to provide for us. At one time the welfare system insisted she accept their help she refused until they threaten to take her children away. She then accepted food stamps and a monthly check. We moved to New Mexico because she could find work there and spend time with us children and not have to rely on the state welfare system to help. She was a very proud woman.
I remember when I had my daughter she beamed with great joy. She wanted a granddaughter and guess what Heavnely Father gave her that blessing and in a way gave me the same blessing. I heard I love you said many times to my daughter from her grandmother. I also learned that I was loved through my daughter there were times when Melissa needed something and I didnt have the means to get it my mother did. After Melissa was born my mother was the one that said. "Even though you are not going to church you need to. Melissa needs god in her life. And you are so much happier when you are active." I went back to church and stayed active while Melissa was growing up. My mother was at many events for Melissa such as her blessing and baptism and plays or school activities.I spent lots of hours with her and Melissa. Even though I didn't realize it at the time. I learned how to be strong when I needed, gentle when the situtation required it, and silent when the time was right. Melissa has grown up to have a respect for her elders because of the example that my mother gave her. Once I remember a time when my grandmother was being espically cruel with words to my mom I asked "Why do you put up with grandma talking like that to you."her reply to me was "Because she is my mother and I love her. Yes she sometimes says things that hurt but I am going to be better than that." My grandmother passed away in 1995 as a child and even an adult I remember that I was scared of my grandmother. I am glad that my daughter is not afraid of her grandmother. As I sit here with tears for my mother. I realize that she loved each of her children in her own way. She has two sons and me her daughter. She loved being a mother even though it was hard. I love you mom and I miss you greatly but I am glad that you did show me how to love and appreciate being a mother. I love you Melissa and thank you Heavenly Father for giving me the opporuntity to be a mother. My mother did not like pictures of her taken so I only have a few of us.
HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY mom I miss you. And Love you always

Another movie in Winterset ????

I was visiting a friend near DMacc west campus. When I came home I drove down John Wayne Drive and in the parking lot of Fareway there are all these Semi's and Winnebago's parked in there parking lot. The street is block off around the square and being the curious person I am. I drove around and stopped at Montross Pharamcy where my daughter works and asked her about it. She was able to tell me that they were filming some movie. But she wasn't sure what movie. A customer that was at the counter told us. It is a remake of a 1970's sci-fiction called The Crazies. I found out after a little research that it will have Timothy Olyphant as the sheriff and main character. What I find ironic is that it is being filmed in the Northside Cafe that Bridges of Madison County was filmed. The lady at Montross said we should see how they had the cafe is decorated apparently they have creepy looking stuffed birds everywhere. Apparently this movie should be released in July 2010. WOW
I guess I shouldnt be thinking I live in a hick town anymore.